God is for me!!! And if God is for me, who can be against me? (Romans 8:31) He's creator of the universe and He's in my corner... He is cheering me on....He is my cheerleader... He is my coach.... He is my waterboy... He fills me when I am thirsty and dry... He is my strength....He's on my side...He's on my team!!!! Will we open our ears to hear? Will we open our mouths to be filled? Will we run to him when we fall? Will we ask Him to bandage our wounds and to heal our hearts? Will we let Him? He's waiting. He's waiting. Arms wide open. Cry out to God...He is our only Hope!
Friday, January 28, 2011
New Day, Same Urge
Friday January 28, 2011...8:45 (sad isn't it)
Why can't I be like normal people? Why can't I wake up with happy thoughts of what the day will bring? Why is my mind consumed with alcohol first thing every morning? Why can't I deliver myself? Why won't God just instantly deliver me? Why won't He take all these urges, desires away? I mean I don't want to drink at all. It took me a while to get to that point and now that I'm there, the voices in my head won't stop! I hate it...let me say that again...I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!! I struggle with why He has reasons for this but I guess I do need to trust Him. He has a purpose for everything. I just wish I knew what purpose obsessing about alcohol will serve. I'm just glad I have Him on my side or I would be doomed.
Why can't I be like normal people? Why can't I wake up with happy thoughts of what the day will bring? Why is my mind consumed with alcohol first thing every morning? Why can't I deliver myself? Why won't God just instantly deliver me? Why won't He take all these urges, desires away? I mean I don't want to drink at all. It took me a while to get to that point and now that I'm there, the voices in my head won't stop! I hate it...let me say that again...I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!! I struggle with why He has reasons for this but I guess I do need to trust Him. He has a purpose for everything. I just wish I knew what purpose obsessing about alcohol will serve. I'm just glad I have Him on my side or I would be doomed.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Drinking in the Son
"If anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink! " John 7:37
This is the purpose of my blog. I want freedom. I know so many other born again christians want freedom. Why don't we go to Jesus and drink? Why do we find the relief in our addiction? Do we not trust God? do we not believe that if we come to Him and "drink" "out of our {hearts}will flow rivers of living waters? " I'm scared. Scared of the unknown but scared of not obeying the word of my God!!! He is soooo patient. Thank you God for being so patient with me. I need you. I love you. You are my only hope. Without you, I am doomed!!!!! Without you I don't care. Without you what is life. God, please bring those to this blog that will be blessed through it. That will be brought closer to you because of it. I am but a servant!!!! Use me...I am yours...struggles and all. I will never give up! EvER!!!! May I hunger and THIRST only for you!!!!!!! Deliver me...deliver all!!!!!! God help us!!! Without you there is no hope. I love you Jesus.
This is the purpose of my blog. I want freedom. I know so many other born again christians want freedom. Why don't we go to Jesus and drink? Why do we find the relief in our addiction? Do we not trust God? do we not believe that if we come to Him and "drink" "out of our {hearts}will flow rivers of living waters? " I'm scared. Scared of the unknown but scared of not obeying the word of my God!!! He is soooo patient. Thank you God for being so patient with me. I need you. I love you. You are my only hope. Without you, I am doomed!!!!! Without you I don't care. Without you what is life. God, please bring those to this blog that will be blessed through it. That will be brought closer to you because of it. I am but a servant!!!! Use me...I am yours...struggles and all. I will never give up! EvER!!!! May I hunger and THIRST only for you!!!!!!! Deliver me...deliver all!!!!!! God help us!!! Without you there is no hope. I love you Jesus.
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